Stumbled

So the Christmas Holiday Season is almost over…ending in New Years.  I bombed. Fell. Stumbled.  WipeOut!

I ate wheat based items – not once, not twice but 3 times – on three DIFFERENT days!  My daughter made cake balls.  I had to try one, thinking…it will be nice for her mom to at least eat one…three cake balls later.

I didn’t think too much about it.  A moment.

Then I did so good.  I made grain free cookies – with this recipe – http://wellnessmama.com/5810/chocolate-chip-cookies/.  SO amazingly good.  So proud of myself – for taking the time to do it.  Took them to a cookie exchange at a neighbor’s house.  EVERYONE loved them and no one could believe they did not have wheat flour.

Then I went to my mom’s Christmas day.  I did NOT eat the rolls.  But, see there is a FAVORITE cookie that she makes.  I’d AVOIDED them at the cookie exchange – pretending they were not looking all delicious on a plate.  But my mom…how can I possibly say NO to her cookies…

AND I ate chocolate…a lot of it.  While that is NOT listed on the forbidden foods – some chocolate items are FULL of corn syrup.  YEP!  Not straight chocolate bars, the candy that you ONLY get during December of every year.  UGH…

So – I was okay yesterday.  But so – so tired.  And my hands felt slightly swollen and weird – joint pain.  Then I ATE a BURRITO with a flour shell.  Frozen.  From the Store.  PROCESSED, SO VERY BAD.  Within an hour – it is like the Lord said…STOP!! 

By the time I went to bed last night – my knees were hurting and my hands continued to hurt.  My mom has TERRIBLE arthritis pain.  I’d read that gluten/wheat can make it worse.  It was NOT psychological.  It was actually happening.  3 days of grains in one form or another including hidden in that dreaded corn syrup – and I’m done.  Sorry.  Repentant.  Turning from the sin of disobedience.  God said to my heart – no grains.  I thought…just a little.

NOPE.  NONE.  Nada, Rien.

just say NO

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Hidden Grains

Suzanne here:  WOW.  So it has been over 2 weeks since I began this journey.  2 weeks without grains.  Or at least I thought so.  Tonight, I had a special treat.  I’ve been quite faithful to what the Lord put on my heart to do.  As a treat, I took my kids to Chick-fil-A.  We LOVE Chick-fil-A.  But it is a treat for us to eat there.  For a family of 6 – our meals can exceed $50.  That gets pricey.  So there were only 4 of us tonight, so we stopped to eat there.  I had a wrap – I just removed the tortilla wrap and ate it like a salad with alot of Chick-fil-A sauce.  But we splurged and got shakes.  It is afterall the Christmas season and they have their Christmas Shakes.  I’d not had one in a couple of years – so I was so EXCITED.

Not so much anymore.  About 15 minutes ago my stomach started rolling.  I started praying.  What did I eat that could cause me to have this symptom.  I won’t go into details, other than to say, the result was not vomiting but something else.  I asked the Lord to show me what could have triggered this.  No, not the wrap.  Not the waffle fries.  ?!?

The shake?  NO……OOOOOOO….OOO…O!!

This is what the website says is in the shake:

Peppermint Chocolate Chip Milkshake: Icedream (whole milk, sugar, nonfat dry milk, artificial flavor, corn starch, mono & diglycerides, microcrystalline cellulose, carrageenan, guar gum, Yellow 5 & 6), milkshake base (whole milk, sugar, cream, whey powder (milk), nonfat dry milk, artificial flavor, disodium phosphate, mono and diglycerides, tetrasodium pyrophosphate, guar gum, cellulose gum, carrageenan), Peppermint syrup (corn syrup, water, glycerin, natural peppermint flavor, citric acid, sodium benzoate as a preservative, red 40), red & white dark chocolate peppermint pieces (peppermint twist [sugar, corn syrup, natural peppermint oil, artificial color {red #3, Red #40, Blue #1}], confectionery coating [sugar, partially hydrogenated vegetable oil {palm kernel, coconut, palm}, cocoa {may be processed with alkali}, whey (milk), soy lecithin as an emulsifier, vanilla], powdered sugar [sugar, corn starch], corn starch, silicon dioxide), whipped cream (cream, milk, sugar, sorbitol, nonfat milk solids, artificial flavor, mono and diglycerides, carrageenan, polysorbate 80, mixed tocopherols [vitamin E] to protect flavor, propellant: nitrous oxide), cherries, (high fructose corn syrup, water, potassium sorbate [a preservative], sodium benzoate [a preservative], citric acid, artificial flavor, FD&C Red #40, sulfur dioxide [a preservative].UGH!!! UGH!!!
Big sad face!

But to add insult to injury…I got curious. Wonder what is in Chick-fil-A sauce…

Really – do I even need to post this?!
Chick-fil-A® Sauce: Soybean oil, sugar, BBQ sauce (tomato puree [water, tomato paste], high fructose corn syrup, vinegar, corn syrup, salt, modified food starch, soybean oil, hydrolyzed soy protein, natural hickory smoke flavor, mustard flour, onion*, spice, garlic*, natural flavor), water, mustard (distilled vinegar, water, mustard seed, salt, turmeric, paprika, spice, garlic*), distilled vinegar, egg yolk, salt, cider vinegar, lemon juice concentrate, mustard flour, natural flavor, xanthan gum, garlic*, calcium disodium EDTA added to protect flavor. *dehydrated.

So, did I mention, I CANNOT have Soy? Thyroid+Soy=NON FUNCTIONING THYROID!! Yeah, and then did you see the 2 counts of CORN SYRUP in the CFA Sauce? Ugh…but even scarier was this ingredient: MODIFIED FOOD STARCH.

I don’t want to get all legalistic here but really, is it necessary to add a MODIFIED food to this? Couldn’t it just be a food starch – pretty sure corn starch is a food starch. That is bad enough but whatever they are putting in there as a thickening agent is so bad the FDA is making them list it as MODIFIED. Yeah, sorry, CFA – I’m saying “peace out” on your secret sauce! And I won’t be letting my kids eat it anymore. SAD FACE!
Modified Food Starch is made by physically, enzymatically or chemically altering starch to change its inherent properties. In this instance, modified does not necessarily mean genetically modified, however some modified starches are likely made from geneticallymodified ingredients.
I once knew a girl who NEVER ate out. She told me every time she did she got sick. I thought she was weird. Guessing on the food subject, she was wise beyond her years. I think my body had grown accustomed to processed foods, modified things, and grain. And 2 weeks without it – my body said, “WHAT IS THIS?” and got it out quite quickly. I still feel yucky.What is even worse is that CFA is the BEST fast food restaurant we have. McD, BK, Wendy, and the like aren’t nearly as healthy or good. So I am thinking…yeah…no more fast food.

God is good all the time. What He made – it doesn’t make us sick…unless it has been modified by human hands/minds.

So, stepping off my soap box. Not gonna post a picture as I don’t want to get sued for disparaging any food chain. But, this was sure a wake up call.

G’nite y’all.
-Suzanne

Results

I got a little overwhelmed this week. I am not sure if it is Thanksgiving or not. Perhaps, it was that it’s been a week and a half of no grains and I thought that the results would be quicker. I finally dug my scale out of my basement. We’ve been broken up since about May. My indicator to weight gain was that my pants were slowly not fitting anymore. After I weighed myself yesterday I wanted to break up again! I weighed 179 pounds. I have never weighed 179 pounds except when I was pregnant! Sadly, I am not pregnant. sadly being the weight not the pregnancy!

I just texted P- a fat picture! I wanted to have a record of it because rarely do I have my photo taken. When the weight falls off we will do a before and after but not now! it is not at all motivating.

However, I have noticed some differences in my moods and my attitude! This is a good thing! I have a friend that I have asked to be praying, she felt led to tell me to not worry and just put my faith and trust in the Lord! I am doing that!

So I just wanted to check in to let you know where we’re at. I weighed myself again today, I know you’re not suppose do it every day! But, I am desiring some sort of affirmation!

We are overcoming!!

Suzanne